Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Planning for Positivity

Hey everyone –

I am really struggling with what to talk about this month.  As you may know, I lost my best friend on July 2nd… My chocolate lab Cassius lost a very short and aggressive battle with an infection.  I will never know how he contracted this infection but it attacked his arthritic elbow and traveled to his brain in a matter of 2-3 days.  I have been a shell of a person ever since.  He wasn’t just a dog; he was my brother, my best friend. 

Then came the health scare… a few people know what I have been dealing with but I have really tried to keep this all inside because I have no idea how to fix it… I’m hoping in the next few weeks I will get my cardiac tests and brain scan results back from my doctor and we can go through everything and try to get my life back on track.  Until then I can’t train, I can’t get my blood pressure up too high, and I have to do my best to stay calm.  It’s frustrating to say the least. 

This has all happened in the month of July… it might not sound like a lot to some, but it’s more than I can handle. 

This makes me think of a topic for this months’ post… Planning for Positivity

For me, I need to find inner peace… I need to find a way to keep myself centered and calm.  So I have decided I am going to take up yoga and meditation.  I had thought of it before but really didn’t think there was a need.  Now I have a need, I must find a way to bring myself to a place of calmness.  I am the type of person who needs a plan.  I need to know how I am going to proceed… there is not one single “fly by the seat of your pants” kinda bone in my body.  I have to have a plan for how I am going to remedy the things in my life that are slowing me down.  Now that I have an idea, I am going to research different yoga studios and places I can meditate… what does meditation even mean? How do I do it?  Etc.  I cannot sit here and become consumed by my broken heart or my health scare.  I need to plan for the future.  I need to plan for positivity.  I have planned a trip to South Carolina at the beginning of September.  I am going to travel to different places this year and do great things in every place my toes touch.  I am going to bring more positive energy into this world!  Remember, even if everything is going GREAT in your life and things are better than ever, you can always plan for the next big thing :)

Always continue reaching for the stars, and when you are dancing among them, start reaching for something brighter :)