Hey everyone –
I am really struggling with what to talk about this
month. As you may know, I lost my best
friend on July 2nd… My chocolate lab Cassius lost a very short and aggressive
battle with an infection. I will never
know how he contracted this infection but it attacked his arthritic elbow and
traveled to his brain in a matter of 2-3 days.
I have been a shell of a person ever since. He wasn’t just a dog; he was my brother, my
best friend.
Then came the health scare… a few people know what I have
been dealing with but I have really tried to keep this all inside because I
have no idea how to fix it… I’m hoping in the next few weeks I will get my
cardiac tests and brain scan results back from my doctor and we can go through
everything and try to get my life back on track. Until then I can’t train, I can’t get my blood
pressure up too high, and I have to do my best to stay calm. It’s frustrating to say the least.
This has all happened in the month of July… it might not
sound like a lot to some, but it’s more than I can handle.
This makes me think of a topic for this months’ post… Planning
for Positivity
For me, I need to find inner peace… I need to find a way to
keep myself centered and calm. So I have
decided I am going to take up yoga and meditation. I had thought of it before but really didn’t
think there was a need. Now I have a
need, I must find a way to bring myself to a place of calmness. I am the type of person who needs a
plan. I need to know how I am going to
proceed… there is not one single “fly by the seat of your pants” kinda bone in
my body. I have to have a plan for how I
am going to remedy the things in my life that are slowing me down. Now that I have an idea, I am going to
research different yoga studios and places I can meditate… what does meditation
even mean? How do I do it? Etc. I cannot sit here and become consumed by my
broken heart or my health scare. I need
to plan for the future. I need to plan
for positivity. I have planned a trip to
South Carolina at the beginning of September.
I am going to travel to different places this year and do
great things in every place my toes touch.
I am going to bring more positive energy into this world! Remember, even if everything is going GREAT
in your life and things are better than ever, you can always plan for the next
big thing :)
Always continue reaching for the stars, and when you are
dancing among them, start reaching for something brighter :)
